Veteran uses artistic expression to cope with PTSD
Thirteen years after a medical discharge from the Air Force, photographer Omar Columbus received an assignment that was the stuff of dreams: to shoot for a hip fashion and culture magazine filled with models and feature-length stories.
It was a long road for Columbus to travel, to use photography and writing to cope with PTSD, to suddenly shooting fashion in New York City. But it wasn't always this way.
Columbus grew up in Washington, North Carolina, raised by a single mom. Feeling that he did not have much opportunity, he enlisted into the Air Force, serving from 1994 to 2006. In that time, Columbus served in South Korea, Colorado Springs, and to Saudi Arabia in 2003 in support of Operation Iraqi Freedom.
After exiting service, Columbus moved to New York City, where he found art and community in veterans' writing groups around the city. He found his voice through writing poetry and performing with Warrior Writers, Craft of War Writing, and Voices from War.
Veteran Omar Columbus and Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner Marion Creasap.
"My PTSD is related to specific things I experienced on deployment, as well as a general feeling of guilt," says Columbus. Writing poetry gave him a sense of confidence, a way to express traumas of his military experience through art. The chance to perform in front of civilians is powerful. "Words like desert, combat, and bomb become part of artistic expression rather than just association with personal guilt and doubt or shame."
Columbus also recognized that photography gave him a way to manage his anxiety in public. Through the imaginary barrier created with his camera lens, he chooses if he wants to interact with his subjects or just photograph the streets from a distance. Featured in a group gallery show at the legendary Salmagundi Club in Manhattan, Columbus recently sold a photo collage called "New Yawk State of Mind."
Columbus found help at the VA NY Harbor, with his psychiatric nurse practitioner, mentor and counselor, Marion Creasap, who has been a steadying and stabilizing influence. "She's been a rock for me to hold on to when I was down and wanted to give up."
"Eye on Brooklyn" collage by Omar Columbus.
Recently, celebrity fashion photographer and TV personality, Mike Ruiz, called Columbus and made him an extraordinary offer. He wanted Columbus to photograph a project. "The photoshoot was over-the-top and such an exhilarating experience," Columbus recalled.
Now, Columbus is giving back, to help others as he has been helped. Later this year, he will be sending disposable cameras to service members deployed to Afghanistan, to capture the good times with their friends. He raised $1,000 to purchase boxes of Girl Scout Cookies and sent them to military personnel serving on the front lines to remind them of home.
"The biggest reward was the photos they sent back holding up the boxes of cookies and the joy on their faces," said Columbus. "I want to do more of that."
The taste of acknowledgment has helped Columbus feel optimistic. "I want to be a healer and advocate for veterans through art. Hear my story, hear my words."
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